this is me officially pouting that i can't go to the kentucky state fair :(
it starts on the 17th i think....and goes to the end of the month. too bad it hurts for me to even walk around a store now.
i won't get to go and see all the animals.
**pouts**
although.....josh did bring up a good point...that at least next year we will have almost one year olds to bring to see all the pigs, chickens, llamas, cows and such.

i never ride on fair rides....because as i've gotten older i've gotten paranoid....and just more aware at how unstable those things are.
but....i do wish i could at least go and get a GIANT corndog! and maybe a fried snickers.

ok i guess i'm done pouting.

i went at lunch to try and find some slip on sandals that would fit my big fat feet.
i didn't find anything.

i did walk around all the baby stuff at marshalls....didn't find anything there either.
although a boppy was only $15 there....i may go back and get one and then get a cover that i like.

I had a good doctor visit.
The ultrasound lady gave the boys 8 out of 8. They are doing everything that they should be.
They had heartbeats of 130 and 140. I still have one breech. The appointment on the 29th is still a go.
I paid $30 for a stupid FMLA form to be filled out. I was pissed when I saw it was just basic information I could have filled out and had them sign. Grrrrrrr.
Oh well.
We didn't get measurements today. So, I'm not sure what their estimated weights are this week. But, of course I have another appointment scheduled for next Friday for more sonograms and another doc visit.
I am meeting now solely with the doctor that will be doing my c-section. I like her.
I asked her questions about breastfeed and meeting with a lactation consultant. She said each room is equipped with a pump so I will be able to use it while I am in the hospital and they will direct me where I can go to rent a pump until I am able to get to WIC. I already talked to the WIC lady and she seemed really helpful. She told me to make sure to tell them that I had twins..which they should know....but that I am going to need the hospital grade one to keep up my supply.
I asked the doc about their procedures on circumcision and whether or not they give a local. My mom really wanted to make sure that they would be given something. I feel bad for not having thought of that sooner.
They are happy with my weight gain...which is now only about 28 pounds total. She was really happy with my blood pressure and my protein levels. She said that I am making this look too easy! haha.
I told her I could complain more if she wanted.
I asked her about my feet since they have been SO awfully swollen. She said that since my BP is fine and my protein is as well...it's just normal swelling...no pre-eclampsia.
So that's that!!
I do have some sonogram pictures to share! Taylor was the only one cooperative this time and she got tons of great pictures of his face. We only got one of Callum and that is of his hand. He wasn’t up for picture taking today!



Taylor’s cutie face!


More of Taylor


The one of Callum’s fist!

well it seems that i may be able to breastfeed after all.
my boobs leaked last night and left lovely stains on my nightgown. the lady from WIC breastfeeding said that you don't start leaking colostrum until after you give birth because that's when you release the hormones that tell your body it's good to go.

so here is where my sort of dilemna sets in i guess. with twins i will probably need to pump at some point, because of lack in supply or whatever else can happen. i can't afford one of those fancy pumps because they are over $200 and really.......i just don't have that to throw around. so. i guess i'll get a hand pump for the beginning. but, i wonder what they'll have me do at the hospital. should i take out my nipple piercings before i go in for my c-section so that they can try and latch while i'm in the hospital. i just don't know what to do about it. i figured if i was just pumping that i could keep them in. i know the doctors will tell me to take them out, well because of course i should do whatever i need to do for the boys.

i need to find someone who has piercings and breastfed as well.

sorry, i'm just thinking out loud i guess.

i have an appointment today at 12:30 for ultrasound and a visit with the doc.

i wish i could be taken out of work. i am sooooo tired and it hurts to walk anymore.
i'm really trying to hang in there though. 19 more days til my scheduled date!

my birthday

Today is my 28th birthday.
I have to admit that it feels so different.
I have to ask my mom if this is how birthdays feel once you are or are going to be a mom.
Things just feel different. I don't have that selfish feeling wondering what I am getting or what we're doing. My focus has totally shifted.
Joshua woke me this morning with a kiss and hug and a Happy Birthday before he left for work. I love that man. I am really emotional today. Just thinking about how happy I am to be where I am on this birthday makes me cry.
I got a package in the mail from Kerry today with clothes for the boys that are just adorable...and the card and my birthday card made me cry. I am just so thankful for where I am. I don't have the time to selfishly pout about what is going to happen on my birthday this year. I am too busy being so thankful.

I went out to my car this morning and sitting in my passenger seat was a living dead doll. I love those dolls....and the Apple dolls. I have two Apple dolls that Josh has gotten me. And he put my new doll to wait in the car for me and wish me happy birthday. She has a birthday song on the outside of her box. I gotta love a man that is secure enough to buy me dolls that he knows will be displayed in our house.

35 weeks!!

Here's where we are today!

I am hoping for some baby droppage soon. They are so *up* in my ribs it's become so uncomfortable.

I stayed up last night until after midnight watching too much tv. I love Gene Simmons and his family.
His son is ridiculously tall...and I can't believe his daughter is only 13...thank goodness I'm not having girls.

We went shopping for groceries at Super Walmart last night. Needless to say my left ankle is so damn swollen...I have never seen it so fat. It actually hurt to walk because of how fat it was. The klutz that I am dropped a can of juice on my toe...on that foot and cut my toe open...that was fun.
The bottoms of my feet hurt from walking. I am just exhausted.
Josh thinks it's absolutely adorable that I am totally waddling now.
I told him to shut it.

I am so incredibly tired but i can't sleep.
we actually got to hang out with everyone last night. that was really nice to see everybody.
we all met up the coffee shop and hung out out front and then moved on to the ice cream place and coffee shop where we could all sit and talk. i haven't seen some of the people since before i was pregnant...so that was trippy for them.
they were all surprised at how i'm not so much bigger with two.

we put together our swing last night...and checked out the co-sleeper to see how hard it will be to put together.
i ordered the sheets for it but they won't get here apparently til after the 21st. i ordered us a bottle sterilizer since our dishwasher sucks ass and doesn't have hot water running to it. we have scumlords apparently.

i got all of the boy's clothes that i have so far, recieving blankets, towels, sheets, burp rags, and wash rags cleaned today...they are all folded and put away. i put sheets on both the cribs and put the little baby's first pooh in each of the cribs. it felt good to get somethings ready.
i have a couple of things that i need to return to target and some that i may want to just exchange.
i want to go to babies r us and see if i can find some more outfits.....or something that i can bring the boys home in. we have SOOOO many 0-3 month onesies.
i want to see if i can find some cute little halloween costumes too.

i am SO tired.

my birthday is this week. i couldn't think of anything i wanted when josh asked. all i have on the brain is baby stuff.
i think i know what he got me though! hehe..

we had some awesome food today at my mom's. when we got there my mom warmed up some sausage gravy that floyd made earlier and made us biscuits...oh goodness they were good.
we stayed there all day with the dogs doing laundry and just hanging out and then stayed for dinner as well.
damn i miss floyd's cooking.

this show intervention makes me so sad.

damnit i need to sleep.

so not fun to spend the evening in L&D. i had to get another shot of brethine. i had contractions coming every five minutes. the nurse checked my cervix, which by the way was fucking awful....she says i was just a fingertip dilated. the babies were great on the monitors. their heartbeats were great. callum continued to kick at the monitors the entire time. he hates those things.
now i feel like i am on speed again and i am clenching my jaw something awful.
i'm not sure if i'm gonna go into to work tomorrow. i don't see sleep in my future right now.
poor josh had a migraine of course while we went to l&d he got to deal with that.
what fun.
what a great night.

ok.
so a slight panic has set in.
i went to the doctor and the ultrasound went well.
both babies passed with flying colors, they were happy with everything they were checking on. they wanted to see certain movements and see them practicing breathing....that all went well.
we have Taylor weighing in at around 5lbs 3oz and Callum weighing somewhere around 4lbs 12oz. Callum's weight could be off because they couldn't get very good shots of his head or femur bones.
He was hiding behind Taylor but is above him...they are all twisted up in there.
So since we still have one breech and the other not.......we scheduled the c-section. this is where the panic sets in! oh my goodness. now if everything continues as it is right now i know my boy's birthday will be August 29th!
the doctor asked me if i was still working and was surprised that i said yes. she asked if i wanted a note for her to limit my hours or take me out totally. i told her not really....since i am doing alright...just sort of exhausted. but i need the money for now. so, at least i know i have the option to ask next week if i am dying.
my cervix is still closed up tight.
holy crap i am carrying around 10 pounds of baby!
i'm so excited and nervous at the same time!
looks like we're having little virgos.

34 weeks

Here is where we are today!!!!



My mom sent me a few of the shower on Saturday.
So here we are, three pictures from Saturday.
Good lord I am looking huge!!!
And, nevermind my silly faces in two of them.
Haha.



Good old sideways view!


Standing next to the food table. I have a weird crooked smile going on.


From Left to Right. My sister Ashley, Me, my sister Shannon, and my Mommy!

34 weeks

Taylor decides that we start every morning with hiccups! haha.
Today they are really strong ones....poor little guy!
Not only does he have to be squashed under his brother....but he always gets the hiccups...and squashed when i lean forward.
Those french toast sticks were delicious though.
Appointment at 12:30 today!
yay!
I can't believe I'm at 34 weeks already! It seems like time just flew. Not that I wasn't counting the weeks down, which sometimes made it feel so slow. But, wow!
I tried to put together the organizer thing we bought at Target last night. Needless to say I ended up throwing a fit and Josh came in to finish it and realized that I had put some of the parts together wrong. No wonder why I was having such a hard time with the damn thing.
I woke up literally EVERY hour and a half from when I went to bed until I woke up this morning.
Apparently my body is getting me ready.